Sunday, December 23, 2012

New Home

Quite a while ago, I needed a change, and moved my blog over to http://beautifulthemessweare.wordpress.com/
sorry to those that land here...

please hop on over and check out my photoblog!

Friday, February 10, 2012

New Home

Just letting anyone that's interested know.. this blog is being dismantled and moving to a new home.It's just time for a change.. Thanks to all that have followed.. If interested .. FB my inbox and when it is ready, I'll send the new link.. It's been fun!

Thursday, February 2, 2012

What the heck IS exactly the plan?

... those were my EXACT thoughts as I went out walking today...as I looked up to see the beautiful patch of blue sky....my thoughts were...What EXACTLY is THE plan God?? Helloooo, are you there??


and the EXACT "thought" that popped into my head was.....


#`1. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jer. 29:11


and no joke.. the next IMMEDIATE "thought" was this song... specifically these words...
#2  For YOU,...for YOU created my inmost being, YOU knit me together in my mothers womb.. I praise you O God...for I'm fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, and I know that full well...My frame,.... my frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth, Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book, before one of them came to be.
How precious are YOUR thoughts about me..O God... How vast is the sum of them!
If I were to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand!
This song literally makes me cry every time I hear it..and it's exactly what I needed to hear.
Today....after struggling with some thoughts about people,and relationships.. and what I'm doing, should be doing..going to do.. who I am.. who people think I should be....where things are headed.. or NOT...Complicated relationships.....
I started thinking about the last few years of  changes.. struggles...loss.. grief... the unending grief.. over the loss of so many things...and how that all has led me to this time...
parents, loved ones.. friends...family...stability.. security.. job.. health...
broken and lost friendships...  
 this song and verse put things into perspective
People have their thoughts, their perceptions, their  perspectives...They have their excuses and hurtful words...They have their insecurities...they have their beliefs they hide behind...People have issues they need to deal with....I can't help them with that..and quite honestly.. I don't want to anymore..
I can't be.. what people want me to be, or need me to be...I can only be ME.. who I was CREATED to be.
I have changed. I realize that.. but how could that NOT happen with everything that has taken place over the last couple years.
I don't know if it's all the life events.. all the losses.. the constant changes...
They've changed me...and in my mind... I've wondered if the changes have been for the better..Some have been, for that I am sure.
Seems some people don't think so..
but.. is it THEIR opinion that I should be worrying about?
What I DO know is..That even thru these changes ..God has a plan for me.. and is leading me in the direction HE wants....I am thankful for the hope I have in HIM...and the future He already know's about....
and in this season of quiet...He's growing me....He's strengthening me....He's healing me.
with or without friends.. with or without those relationships that I THOUGHT were important..
I kind of feel like I've been shedding off the old skin and growing a new one... and in that shedding.. just may be  some friendships and relationships...
All my days.. ALL my days.. were ordained for me in HIS book.. before they came to be..
I don't have all the answers.. I don't know who will be standing by my side along this journey.. who may come and go....
I don't know how things will end up, ..but HE does.. and for me.. right NOW..that's all that matters....
*When God is all you have.. you have all you need