Monday, January 9, 2012

Pondering and Attacking

I asked a friend of mine last week, what they thought I should do with my life. As most people know, it's been a very rough couple years for us..I've lost all my parents.. ( was adopted) and a few really good friends...with not much time to breath and recoup in between each of them..
Naturally being a caregiver, and having cared for several of them..and now having them all gone .. I find myself at a loss as to what to do next. So last week, when I asked my friend what I should do.. she challenged me to find something I love.. and attack it! I have been pondering this since then.....
Problem is... there are a FEW things I love..not just one or two.. and I would LOVE to do any of them as actual work, where you get paid. ( I need a job!!)  What better thing could there be in life, then to get paid for what you love to do naturally? Works for me!
So the question is though...(at least for me) What is your passion? and is your passion enough to do as a job? make a little money?  There is a difference between what you are good at, and what you are passionate about... I think??
So as I have been pondering...a lot has been going on in my mind and heart. This has been such  a long, tough season, on so many levels... and now...
a kind of new beginnings of sorts..
Sometimes it's hard to know where to begin. I've had a few heart to hearts with God....praying that I could finally "rest" and be planted where I truly belong..and where and what the right fit would be for me and my life... I find that I'm not one to just have a job, because it's a job... I think because of where I am in my life..and all that's happened in my life.. I'm looking for a job using my natural gift (s)..I believe we all have them.. and I know that when I am working, just for works sake..and not using what I am naturally gifted at.. I am not so happy and satisfied in that job.
Does that make sense..?
Now I know there are those that would argue that you should just be thankful for any job.. and I agree.. BUT... ..... IF you could have a job.. using your naturally given gifts and talents.. WHY not? 
So while I was pondering, and talking to God.. and telling Him what I thought would work for me..(lol)  I came across this article about  Passions vs.Hobbies... yup.. you read THAT right... hmmm..!:))
I found it interesting, for one, because I've been wishing I could take one of my passions, and earn money at it...two.. it's written by a photography psychologist.. (ya.. who'd a thunk??!) So yea.. the article is in reference to photography/photographers.. but.. it could apply to anyone! So I thought I'd share it for others to be encouraged by...for those of you out there that don't want to just settle...
( I couldn't find her name on the blog, but give the author all credit!)

Passions are often confused with hobbies, but there is a critical difference.  A hobby is “a pursuit outside one’s regular occupation engaged in especially for relaxation.”
Passions, on the other hand, are not relaxing.  Passions don’t leave you alone.  Passions insert themselves into your life whether you have time for them or not.   Passions soothe you and drive you crazy at the same time.
We think of a passion as something we love, an overwhelming feeling of devotion and obsession.  But in older English, ‘passion’ also meant ‘suffering‘.  And even now, passions will exact a high price from us – but one we never seem to mind paying.

So the question of finding your passion is not discovering what you like, but what you would be willing to suffer for to keep doing.

Yes, hobbies can turn into passions, but a mere hobby won’t provide the drive and determination and fight necessary to do something for a living.  A hobbyist photographer will love the click of the shutter and the magic of a great image.  A passionate photographer will continue to pursue that magic despite bad days, early mornings, tough clients, expensive equipment, depleted savings, hours of editing, workflow minutiae, business headaches, and all other things that would stop a hobbyist in their tracks.

You know you’ve found your passion when you will continue to pursue it despite what it may cost you.

Passions are powerful, so you think they’d be easy to identify.  They are not.  We may live and breathe them, but we may give no thought to them the way we give no thought to the air around us.  You can’t see a passion just like you can’t see wind – you have to search for what it moves you to do.
For a long time I thought that because I was a whiz at studying, school must be my passion.  Psychology interested me, so I thought I should become a psychology professor.  I was wrong on both counts.
Why didn’t I notice that I had to cram for exams sophomore year because I’d spent all semester documenting Yale with my camera rather than studying?  Why didn’t I notice that I’d race home from my psychology internship in Germany and spend hours – HOURS – uploading my latest travel photos to a blog via dial-up connection?  Why didn’t I notice that I’d write a research paper as quickly as humanly possible – then stay up into the night perfecting a blog post with excruciating care?  Why wasn’t it obvious what I was and was not willing to endure sleep deprivation for?

But you don’t notice – you just DO. 

And that’s the critical part.  So, what do you spend hours doing?  What are you willing to sacrifice time, money, sleep, and vacation for?  What can’t you stay away from?  That is your passion.  If your work is not your passion, then your passion is what makes you late for work.  It’s what makes you rush through everything so you can get back to your passion.

Passions grip you.  You’re going to live them anyway, so you might as well do them for a living


 ........Whoa!! finding that article...... NOW,..... while I'm pondering that very subject.. is NOT a coincidence. 

I love when that happens.. 

So.. now what to do...

I don't know. but I know WHO knows.. 

So I shall just be still, and listen..wait... and keep working at, and attacking my passion...(or two)

and ponder....



Sally said...

I LOVE this post - all of it!! What an awesome article to "happen" upon!! It's got me thinkin' too!! Good thing I love to ponder... Praying for clear direction as to just what IT is -- love you my friend!

Melanie said...

What a great post! \And, you are right... there is One who knows just where your perfect fit is. Keep persuing Him. I know you'll find the answers you're looking for.